the basket of fruit
filled with its tasty loot
had been held too high
scraping at the sky

the ladder was rickety
my desire to climb finicky
i sat, pretending to cry
how can i look straight into my eyes and lie?

frustration, it overwhelms
fuck it, give me the helm
im building a damn air balloon
and im doing it soon

mission complete
im in for the feat
what's the worst that could happen?
oh yea... death could happen

but my mind has decided
rationality, i must fight it
i wonder my future
and hope it doesnt involve a suture

the winds werent strong
they were all wrong
an easy ride
even without a guide

now in front
without even a hunt
food for the hunger
that was always a blunder

i look over the options with care
even though all i see are fair
but of course in the distance i see it
in all of its glory
its beautiful glory

in the basket it does not rest
i assume thats because its the best
i know with reality i must grapple
i must stay away from this apple

i ask around
receiving numerous frowns
they all have the same wish
to see that apple on their dish

my thoughts always go back
to the apple off the rack
why must i be able to spot
eden from atop

ugh, how this sucks
i go back to cursing my luck
i made the journey up
and still drink from the sad cup

frustration, it overwhelms
fuck it, give me the helm
im going for a ride
to heal the cut on my side

i check the contents again
nothing looks like it can mend
the pain in my side
faith, i cant abide

i make the decision
to start to envision
to revel in my imagination
its not real, but still elation

enough is enough
awake i must
but something wont let me
i cant figure out what it could be

thats when i realize
why i can not arise
this is because
awake i already was

the dream was this peach
that was completely out of reach
until it fell into my hands
nothing i could have planned

joy
im filled with joy
until im told
my peach has mold

i inspect my peach
expecting to find a breach
but nothing is found
now this confounds

frustration, it overwhelms
fuck it, give me the helm
i know this peach well
intoxicated by its smell

i was about to enjoy
the peach, not savoy
until something changed
oh, how something changed

frustration, it overwhelms
but you hold the helm
i'll gladly take control
if thats okay with you

elation
contemplation
confusion
realization
complication
frustration
intrusion
intention
exclusion
degradation
unsteady rotation

im too burnt out to write a poem

today. what a day. a day it was. today was different than most. started out leisurely as always, but took a quick turn to boring as fuck. i dont know where im going with this. you (richard, korina, and josh) dont want to hear about this shit.

ive finally decided im for sure going to prom. i got my suit and everything, which was ridiculously expensive. thank you dillards for your overpriced jacket. oh, and i got a kickass date. this whole post was just for that. yay me!

its been awhile
since ive felt that way
since ive searched for your smile
since youve made my day

what has changed
i do not know
my feelings ranged
and have now settled on indifference

what can i do
but say adieu
to my useful hope
and its useless scope

the ships gone dry
no more fuel
he'd be stuck in space
which he really hates
so he makes the decision
now left is options
where shall he crash
jupiter, mars, or earth
the only thing he knows
is the certainty of his approaching death
and the accompanying shame
of being the guy
that died in a crash because he was too fucking stupid to remember to fill up at the hydrogen fuel station
and disliked space

I sit and I think
my hope continues to shrink
I have two options ahead
towards you, or away
my confidence goes unfed
it has always swayed

what should I do
I dont have a clue
I could go after you
but I don't know if the path is true

my other options do look good
perfect in their own ways
but my thoughts are just lewd
not like with you
what should I do
what should I do

i see the fence
where is the gate
the ravens keep tapping
at the one way mirror
when will they leave the tower
they scare away the larks

who put their silverware in my parachute

glimpses of heaven
only as a taunt
the idea of you
lightens its haunt

my minds deceived
by what i have told it
we'll see what happens
just please dont hold it

the games arent fun
as alex turner said
the only roads are cul-de-sacs
the only ends are dead

in my heart
confusion dwells
in my head
i always fail

who'd have thought
my current pain
options wrought
all from vain

few seem worthy
those of course
out of reach
no sam morse

change of audience
i wish i could
your sadness resolve
of course i would

dont you doubt
fight the flow
it will work out
if truth you show

what just happened
was it real
a start post-end
wheres my zeal

with one quick look
i saw it all
ive been shook
break down that wall

its been so long
where did you go
it was wrong
im glad you know

just in time
an old dream reinstated
i'll cut in line
old hope reinflated

the madness in my head
tends to cloud reason
can never tell its dead
my soul is treason

put the system in peril
the drug can kill
this needles not sterile
no such skill

i'll never understand
how you work
go for grand
im just the clerk

it wouldnt last
neither of us good enough
i know its crass
call the bluff

maybe
just maybe
its the crossroad in your head

the queens been stabbed
right in the face
so fucked up
like super gay

the culprits found
how did she stomach
to disgrace the crown
in such a way

honor she shouts
rants and raves
too despicable
if back caught knife

jesus you say
glory is shouted
dont you know
its all untrue

hope and faith
makes me sad
hope and faith
is pity disguised

i remove the glasses
they never did fit
focus i cant
now its lit

sounds go by
sights emerge
but it seems they exist
only in distraction form

the only truth
gets brought down
the only truth
feels hope forlorn
i had a thought
dont adjourn

wait
they say
wait
i hear
no i say
i want you near

i need you here
to calm my fear

my body shakes
my body trembles
all mistakes
i always stumble

i dont feel whole
emotional hunger
we need more coal!
i cant much longer

with constant swell
the engine roars
say no to hell
i want to be bored

heave and ho
its just for show
this i worry
ignore the jury

nothing is learned
nothing is earned
nothing is the word
cherish it replaced

today was okay, but it had a moment of greatness. i cant really explain, but steven and i are geniuses. im fairly certain it was the highlight of my life. not just my life in the past, but even the life to come. i have plateaud, but i dont even care, it was that awesome. id be happy dieing now. the timing was perfect, the execution unflawed. something i will remember forever.

i also found several new bands. it all started with the foals, which is currently my favorite band. its everything ive ever wanted, new, revolutionary, mindblowing, and just fucking sick. id classify it as post punk disco dance funk math rock, which has always been the formula i figured my calculations would lead to. from them have stemmed these new puritans, vampire weekend, and maths class. i bask in the sun of the great

tomorrow you might try
to gain some insight

im not transparent
it reflects around me

the radiation does absorb
this happens of course

no veil is needed
ive had this mask once born

many a penetrating sight have tried
always no luck i need not duck

the deflections never felt
i do feel horrible
when the bounces cause
slight destruction

ive tried to stop it
never peace accomplished

the train has passed
thats for sure
who'd a guess
another comes near

recently departed
from another station
one much greater
than salvation

the train is new
the train is shiny
not great built
but oh so shiny

i begin to doubt
the trains true route
here appears
to be paths end
but to insanity
my eyes might lend

the train moves fast
i can see
relative distance
makes no means

ive noticed something
of extreme importance
no path is visible
wheres my stance

my mind doth wonder
what to do
we seem asunder
if only i knew

my mind doth wander
back to you
i couldnt find the spot
this you knew

i heard the rumors
that it did exist
i went on instinct
to resist

why you ask
i began the search
i smelt the scent
of quenchable thirst

this no longer matters
i am a fool
this is apparent to you
its kind of cruel

many things to ponder
but wait, come on
think of the train
trekking from yonder

im still unsure
how to clear
the gap of frontier
safe travel i cant assure

must i jump
must i try
or could i sit
relax my mind

that approach
does not promise
much success
so fuck you thomas

many barriers
id have to leap
i know i pretend
but im not asleep

if this train
does even pass
i have no thought
of how to catch

i heard it flies
so damn fast
should i try
whats my chance

i think i could
i hope i would
will i make it
can i make it
before the time is gone
or will i fall
alright sean

you set my heart on fire
it has since cooled
i have the option for desire
i can once again be fooled

dont think its ended
it doesnt need to be mended
the initial shock has just warn off
the fact that im still here means a lot

whenever you wish to reignite
my passion in which i delight
just say the word
and it will have occurred

i dont think the time is right
for us to join in flight
well, thats speaking for me
honestly, i do feel you need
exactly what i bring
as arrogant as that sounds

our love would have soared
it would have been so pure
but i cant have that
thats just a fact
i need something i can take for granted
i must remain enchanted
at least for the time being

my patience for passion
has not lasted
ill search for new sources
but i still refuse to ride the horses
of glory and self-praise
of acclaim to raise
its just not me
to state what i be
thats for you to determine

today
what a strange day

im in the worst state of mind
of the very worst kind
i can barely tell whats going on
im so fucking gone

but it doesnt matter
i have just shattered
my own image of perfect morality

against all odds
i resisted
finally given to by the gods
but instead i insisted

i still cant believe
what a horrible relief
i almost wish i took part in the sin
letting the rest of my life begin

a hero now
a hero then
thats not me
i wont pretend

the bodies were so appealing
offering egotistical healing

she sat there
and i sat here
you were nowhere near

i couldnt look at her
worried about thoughts incurred

when she laughed, i heard yours
when she smiled, i saw yours
when our skin touched, i felt yours
no
she is not you
but would still make due

so many beautiful people
the only thing they miss is the label
of being you
having what you have
being what you are

a different today
not that strange of a day
im just very tired

all i can do is reflect
and try to inject
thoughts of hope
now i am the one who mopes

i keep making progress
but never towards success
i dont take two steps
i take one step twice

in circles my mind rotates
true emotions just spectate
my judgement is nonsense
all that remains is pretense

circumstance, you are a bitch
i do hope you realize
this makes two you have nixed

circumstance, im tired of your shit
even from the first glance
you make sure there is no chance

circumstance, give me a break
every time cant be a mistake
let me partake

circumstance, this joke is no longer funny
not even you continue to laugh
let me revel in the idea of good fortune

circumstance
i wish to advance
how about you stop being an ass

the fame of shame-

her voice echoes through my veins
tearing at my restrains
blocking the air from making gains

other voices force me to feign
interest through the pain
that will not drain
no matter my strain

i know i must abstain
but the train of campaign will not let me sustain
any feeling other than disdain
which i steadily maintain

i cannot refrain
it makes me insane
ill pretend its inane
even a little mundane
and continue to entertain

it cant be humane
i am detained in your domain
where you say you have not reigned

you leave me slain
is it all in vain or will i attain
your heart, my cocaine

i feel so dumb
playing this game in the worst terrain
why couldnt it be plain
and never evoke my shame
who could i blame
so very lame

this is hilarious. i hope you enjoy.


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